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Telepathic Messages : Kibo Last Updated: Dec 29, 2018 - 7:23:11 PM


CONFESSIONAL….WITH APOLOGIES….
By kibo Dabi
Oct 9, 2014 - 11:58:13 PM

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CONFESSIONAL….WITH APOLOGIES….

Tonight is a lunar eclipse…..before the end of the month there will be a solar eclipse….somewhere between that time there is a jewish holiday…..Yom Kippur….another one of those holidays where you can expect a celebration of and through war and murder and death and devastation…….but something is different………I’ve gotten to the point where I can figure out what I’m experiencing on certain levels…I used to watch…well…I still do…all the star wars animated episodes…..and I’ve seen the movies…I love that: “There is a disturbance in the force…” discernments…now…I think I know what that actually means……

I’ve always heard tones, from time to time…I knew it meant something…but I hadn’t really figured it out until recently……..left ear…bad…right ear…good…….lol….yeah…it’s like that….and then there’s the feeling that goes with it…not really a feeling….a sense……I don’t know what to call it…but it’s there…and I’ve finally figured out why and what and how it is this thing that I am experiencing…so I’m flowing with it in realization and that helps immensely……

Mostly I get left ear shit…..the last tone I had, I just knew something stupid had happened….and sure enough, Iran had an, apparently, mossad attack………..

So I’m getting the hang of all this and in the meantime….i’m learning how to discern the fluctuations that I am experiencing……..it’s….fascinating……but it’s serious shit…..so I’m learning what means what and how…..i just have to wait to hear about the where of it…..i already know why…smile…..

Mind you…I’ve been getting this stuff for years and never really know what it meant…now I have to deal with the realization of it…like all of the sudden…it was…like…oh shit!!!! THAT”S what that means….fuck!!!……..what do I do now?

Deal with it…….accept it…learn what to do with it…..use it and let it use you……to get the job done…..

Do the work…the work is within……..that’s the job…..be on the job and do your job and work it……..

WORK IT BABY!!!!!

*ahem*….anyway……

Today….i got a right ear tone…….i’m just doin’ my thing…driving the bus and there it is…….

And that’s when I realized the difference……PRAISE THE LORD AND PASS THE LAPTOP!!!!!!

Okay…it was a new experience for me…..and it’s always a beautiful thing to have a new experience…..that’s how you learn

For better or for worse

The good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly of it all in experience…it’s just that…experience

Be thankful for it…it means you’re living and alive

Physically or spiritually or in any other way that counts…you’re here all the time……

Whatever ‘here’ may mean to you

For some…it means everywhere all at once

Or just everywhere all the time

It depends

Smile

So anyway………I am happy and confident in saying that i, even I, am and Am and AM learning…….

GOD knows I need to learn….as well as the rest of me/us…myself, my self and i and I………

So thanks GRANDPA, PAPA, CM ATON……..IT IS ALL GREATLY APPRECIATED!

Anyway….

Something good has happened…I know not yet what….but I know that something good has happened…

Something that affects all of us……….i mean…really….i don’t really feel all of the little things that people do to help each other out…..moment to moment…in love and fellowship and brotherhood and familyhood and sharing and love and love of GOD…….that stuff actually does happen all the time pretty much everywhere on this planet….human beings do help each other and care for each other and love each other and the do the right thing and the right things…..all the time…..you just don’t hear about it because it gets in the way of all that dark programming that is being constantly foisted upon you in order to get to think and believe otherwise

They want you to think and believe that human beings are born in sin and thus, are evil and always do evil things and good things are…aberrations…when the exact opposite is true…but that’s for you to discern and decide…I’m just sayin’…..once again…and now to all of you: IF YOU WANT TO BE FREE, STOP BELIEVING YOUR SLAVEMASTERS….AND STOP COOPERATING WITH THEM AND DOING THEIR WILL INSTEAD OF GOD’S WILL….

But that’s n you…I’m doing my best……as it is…being poor and needy and weak and stupid…yes…I am all these things…

Even now the house is…again, liened on for taxes and I have to figure out how to raise it……..pray for me and us…..it’s happened before, but for the life of me, I want to earn the hated cash, myself…..but because it is so hated…..i am at a loss as to how to do it……but I have asked and have been told not to worry…..that’s hard for me…I worry all the time…and I really do need to stop, I agree…..just to be out of debt would be a miracle…how far and hard and long and deeply should I hope and pray for one?

We’ve always been bailed out in the past….mind you this is the third time the property tax thing has happened…..but this time I am praying to be able to come up with it myself and I still have to figure out exactly what that means……

And there isn’t even supposed to be time for this, in my mind and sight…but who am I to say?

While I try to learn how not to worry

Because GOD has the power to do anything and GOD is in control….

I saw that on the back of a car in front of me, just earlier today…..the license plate and the sticker said it all……[GOD PW 2] GOD’S POWER TO……….[smile]

Clues and signs in all things within and around you all the time if ye would just notice and discern it…..lol…I do my best to do so…….and there it is…….”Don’t worry…GOD is in control” sayeth the divine bumper sticker just when I need it most……

And it doesn’t matter what I need or think I need or say I need or want to need or want or need to want or want to want

GOD IS IN CONTROL…and I should best be rejoicing in that fact of life and being…in GOD…..

Poor house…stuck with me for an owner….roof needs fixing…fence falling apart….cracks, flooding…..

And still for some strange reason…the house loves me…..?

My poor wife…stuck with me for a husband……no money to go out with or do things or take a vacation or a second honeymoon on the 10th anniversary [I’m working on it….i’m working on it…GOD help me…smile]

Poor dogs…stuck with us as masters….the run of the backyard is their world and they are together and love each other…..good thing….can’t afford a vet, so no shots…no shots no groomer…they’re stuck with me for that….oh god…how they look! Yet they are still happy to see me even if I don’t give a treat or dinner…just petting and rubbing and scratching is enough…no longer can they come upstairs into the house because of the allergy issue….poor dear things….i feel that they are us and we are them and as we treat them, perhaps GOD treats us the same way……….lol…I want to go upstairs, too…….lol…..

Sometimes the little one, the male…the thinker…..the planner…the instigator…..gets through the door and runs up and around…God bless him…..i guess I do that as well……

THEY tell me not to worry about it or them…they’re safe and happy and well fed and have their routine and their own little world to be happy in and they love us…I learn from them on these points….

To love GOD as the dogs love us…….and I only want to give them more than they have……sigh…

The kids are okay….

The grandchildren are having growing pains……

We’re them for them, of course…..but it’s their parents call…we’re just support and back-up….

Lol

And thank GOD for that…….the joy of being a Grandparent is the beauty of indirect influence…heheh…I wonder what GRANDPA would have to say about that?…nevermind…..sometimes you have to be direct….but that is not our situation so I count our blessings on that one…..but the family is close and we all support each other fully and it is a joy to behold…….

The generation right before us is slowly passing away and soon…we will be it…the elders….on my side of the family, this is already the case…for my wife’s side… it is happening now……so things are… fluctuating constantly…it is a time of enduring change…..people are passing on…it is that time in the family generation…and it’s never easy……

As for the rest….it’s all money….which I’ve never excelled at…my bad…..but there was no other way to get here, to this place where I am in mind and heart and being and even in physicality…I’ve been tested and tortured…I’ve been trained and sent through my paces….i have learned and improved and still there is always that much more to learn and improve of myself….and so it goes…

And still wait for this system of things as it is failing and falling to fail and fall completely and finally…..

And I see it coming and I see it happening and in the meantime…..i go through this and realize that everybody is experiencing variations on the same them…….LOL…even rich people are suffering and complaining….and living beyond even their means and losing property and resources and influence….

Eh

I still l am convinced that I am growing and getting better in spite of myself….somehow, I will be stronger….get stronger…mightier….smarter….i crave to reach the very beginnings of wisdom…..

I was young and stupid

Now I am older and less stupid

And I pray to one day to be not stupid…..if such a thing is possible……

I have no problems winning the lottery and two weeks in Hawaii wouldn’t solve…..SMILE

But that’s not up to me….

I still depend upon the kindness of other to make it through my days…we can pay the utilities

The government pays for the food….yes really….

Others have been kind enough to help us pay the mortgage

The property taxes are beyond me

As well as the rest….sigh

And I scream to the heavens:

THERE’S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE TIME FOR THIS!!!!!!

Yet another reason I am experiencing this in the here and now of things here and now….

Perhaps I depend too much upon GOD

NAAAAH

What else is there to depend on?

Keep doing the work

The work is within

The work is all and everything

All else is…..lol….experience…….

Best to concentrate on experiencing the work

A catch-22 ……sucker fell right in my lap…but I caught it….right?

But who am I to complain?

Too many don’t even have it as good as I do in all of this mess of a world system….

So I am asking for prayers

Prayers that I can find a way to take care of all of this once and for all

And keep working, WORKING

Without distraction and just devote myself to this that I love so very much….

But that may not be what GOD wants, after all

I just may need such hardships and strivings

It is what got me here, after all

And I wouldn’t change a thing if I could

Even about the money…….

All the past has done is to bring me…lead me here to

This present future

As I travel to a future present

That will tell me more

Reveal to me….more

See me being……. more

Than I have ever been before

And still

A future beyond that will also reveal the same……

I pray that I can provide for and protect my loved ones…no matter what happens to me…

This is my most earnest prayer in all of this

They will have to decide their own meanings and ways in life

But I am responsible for their welfare

In many ways

So I aim to do my best

And pray that PAPA and CM ATON and GRNAPA

Will at least grant them safe passage with or in spite of me

They will have to decide for themselves how far they are willing to go with me and with GOD

Or one or the other

Or neither

I

I have to go all the way

Through all the threats and death threats and machinations and opposition and what have you and have you not…..

That is on me

They should not have to suffer for it

But I have to keep going forward and upwards regardless of it all…….with or without them….

So it is up to them as to what to do with their relationship with me and what it means and could mean for them as well….God be with them fully through all of it…….

That being the case…..i just want to work my everGODloving ass off without interruption or distraction…

But

I will leave all that up to PAPA and GRANDPA and CMATON as one….and act accordingly…..

So please…pray for me…pray I figure out a way to keep all of this going without losing what I have left to lose…..lol…i really do like it here with these people and things…please forgive me for that…I can’t help it…I do still seem to have some attachments, after all….smile…..but can do without if needs must be…

Pray that we find a way to make or earn the resources and funding needed to not just take care of this instance, but to forever insure that such a thing never happens again….

That’s what I want….

I will do what I have to do

Whatever it may be that is good in GOD’s Sight and Will…..

I just need to find out what that is…….

SO PLEASE PRAY TO GOD TO SHOW ME AND TELL ME AND EXPLAIN TO ME AND INSTRUCT ME AND HOLD MY HAND AND WALK ME THROUGH IT…

Because I am sooo tired of this shit and have only myself to blame…as far as the meaning of that goes….i understand…no really…I get it…but this is my experience and I have to deal with and deal with it I am and this is what I’ve got, for now….i need your prayers….

It’s not that I’m in any position to turn down any monetary resources that you may have to offer….far from it…it’s just that I would feel as being less of a burden if I could do more for myself in this regard…even as the system fails and falls…I still have to deal with what is here and now and that means being stuck in the fiat currency trap until the alternative becomes manifest and the solution is implemented…..until then…just like everyone else…..i have figure out how to pay for stuff and living…..i beg forgiveness for being such as I am…..

So pray

Please pray

Pray that GOD helps me find a way through all this without burdening others any more than I already have and do…..it would mean a lot to me…really….to have your support for being better able to support myself and my loved ones….that’s all I want to be able to do better than I have…..

Enough

Thanks for hearing me out and reading this long, arduous…confessional rant…I apologize for putting here…but I needed to get it out of my system…..poor you…stuck with me to read…grin…ah well…

That’s all

GOD BELSS US ALL EVERYONE, ALL THE TIME AND EVERYWHERE!!!!!

Kibo{THEY keep telling me that I’ll be fine and not to worry, but I keep thinking that I should be doing something and just don’t know what to do….i’m working on that…really…but I need to learn how to follow my own teaching better and not worry……sigh…but I’ so damn good at it! Lol..let it go…let it go}Dabi




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