How I Saved Myself
I got to thinking of how did I get where I am now and what guided me to this point here and now. I got to thinking of how did I save myself, how did I break the hold of the world controllers. How did I overcome "The Matrix". As I pondered this I realised that there is no singular, clear moment. No single "AHA!" moment and like magic my mind was suddenly free. What it was, was a process, a process that began with questioning. The questioning then set me on a path of searching and investigating, of experimenting and testing different theories, methods and answers until I find that which satisfied my inner 'gut' feeling. I've always had a strong mind that could not be easily manipulated or controlled ,although, like with everyone else, it was to some degree until quite recently in fact. I've always had a strong sense of individuality and never liked the idea of being controlled or subservient to another against my will. I never really understood why this was until I began my search and journey to self-salvation in earnest.
Laying out this journey from then to now is not easily explainable. Upon looking back I can see all the twists and turns, sometimes dead ends and doublebacks, time and effort, especially the time and effort, which brought me to this point where I'm actually able to write this.
If I have to start at the beginning (which feels so long ago now but which is in actuality only about 5 years ago) I have to say my real awakening began with questioning. I started to doubt the accepted narrative that this world, it's people and institutions try to tell me is "normal". I followed the science, I followed the religion but was never satisfied. Something big was missing. Something big was not right. In all this enormous universe it just didn't seem logical and feasible that this planet was the only "intelligently" inhabited world overseen by some moody God. There had to be more. I wanted to know more. I needed to know more. You might say my soul (or Higher Self mind) needed to know in order to break free from the mind control (which, at the time, I was subject to and didn't even realise existed on the mass scale that it does).
So I wondered. So I questioned and so I followed my inner guidance, my "intuition", that little voice deep in my conciousness. I questioned and in my particular case my questioning led me to discover Abundant Hope. This was however only the start. As I questioned and investigated the vast amount of material available, a pattern began emerging and a change in my mind started to occur. I learned about free will, the universe, God, those that control and manipulate this planet and it's population, how it is done and what the ultimate plans are (of both the world controllers and God). Much of this information seemed utterly fantastical to me and I was careful and hesitant to just blindly believe it all.
I needed more investigation, more mulling and pondering and I needed to prove to myself that all this incredible things I am discovering is actually real, actually Truth and what I've been searching for. At this point, almost imperceptibly, my critical thinking capacity started to come into play full force. This was my first big breakthrough, when I truly started to think critically about anything I came across, all the books (such as the Urantia book and Phoenix Journals), other information and ,yes, all the AH (as well as other) 'channelings', which was something I was wholly unfamiliar with, and which pushed the believability boundaries even more outward for me. As a result of educating myself like this I also noticed how all the methods are employed in the daily world and realised how I too was duped, used and manipulated to serve ends which was not my own but made to appear as if they were. Over time I taught myself to recognise all controlling, manipulative patterns in people's behaviour (both invidually and collectively such as in commerce, media and government) and made firm choices to NOT be controlled, NOT be manipulated and NOT serve the ends of those who clearly did not have my best interests at heart.
As I went deeper, developed my observational abilities, learned and investigated more, I also learned to properly combine my natural inclination to logical, analytical thinking with my intuition, my feelings. In this way I learned how to discern fact and truth from lie and fiction, especially when it's related to spiritual matters where logic and material observance alone doesn't work anymore and where plain faith starts to come into play. Sometimes all you have to go on is faith and sometimes it proves right and sometimes it proves not so right. In the cases of "not so right" I then learned how to trust my feeling, learn from the experience and subsequently strengthen my faith even more.
As I progressed I began making more firm, conscious decisions and choices about where I want to go with what I'm learning and how and whom I want to serve. I had to decide if I want to continue serving God, Christ Michael and Abundant Hope or if I want to serve myself and the world in order to "go along to get along". I chose the service to God and CM but I still reserved my free will choice rights. Where, when and how I would serve remained my choices, my decisions. I would serve as long as I choose to serve. I would not be manipulated, used or abused towards anyone's ends regardless of who it was. I of course discovered that the way I chose to operate is exactly the way that God works, that CM and AH works.
So I had no quarrels or problems to align with the plan and mission (of CM, AH and my own) and give my service freely and voluntarily always knowing that I can keep my personal sovereignty intact. I am very sensitive to the fine line where voluntary service can become involuntary servitude and thus far I'm quite happy to be of service here and now.
It is said that a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. I say that a journey of infinite discovery of Truth begins with a single question. What that question is and where its answers will take you is entirely your own journey and experience, singularly unique in every way. There may be similarities with the journey of others but the fine details will always be personal to you alone.
You make your destiny by choosing to use the power you already possess within you. Only you can free yourself. Only you can save yourself. There is always plenty of help along the way if you choose to avail yourself of it. This has been my journey. It may be similar to yours in some respects and it may not be but the most important thing to remember is...
YOU MUST TAKE THE FIRST STEP.
YOU MUST ASK THE FiRST, AND RIGHT, QUESTIONS.
EDUCATE YOURSELF IN TRUTH, THINK CRITICALLY, INVESTIGATE, EVALUATE, USE YOUR MIND AND INTUITIVE INNER 'VOICE' TOGETHER.
DO THE INNER WORK YOU CAN YOURSELF AND GOD WILL HELP YOU WITH THE REST.
And above all...NEVER LOSE FAITH, STAY STRONG IN LOVE, LIGHT AND TRUTH AND ENJOY THE RIDE.
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