This link will provide apparently for free, 420 publications on masonry, as pdf downloads. There are couple there could interest me, should I find time to wish to do that. There is nothing wrong with learning the truth. I was pretty much "forced" by my parents to enter Rainbow for Girls, but I was completely NOT interested in it, or moving futher up the chain for Masonic Women. When I was young, my catholic friends could not get into Rainbow, and I was only able to after my formal adoption by my step father, whose father , my thus step grandfather was a Mason. It is my understanding now, when I checked Rainbow a few years ago, is that it is now open to all girls. Don't know if that applies to Demolay for guys or not. Understand these lower levels of Masonry etc, provide for recruitment into higher levels, and those in the lower levels have NO idea what is done in the higher levels.